Pensive

I have about 500 different things I want to write about today. So we'll see how this goes.

Let's start with the song I'm listening to now: Only Hope by Switchfoot. I love Switchfoot. All of their songs are great. But this one - Only Hope - is so awesome. Here are some of the lyrics that really speak to me. Firstly, "When it feels like my dreams are so far, sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again." I have tons of these great, big dreams that I can't commence at this point of my life. So my dreams feel so far but I know He has bigger plans for me; bigger than I can imagine. And that is pretty exciting. Another lyric, "I give You my apathy, I'm giving You all of me." Apathy - an absence or suppression of passion, emotion or excitement; lack of interest or concern for things that other find moving or exciting. Ha, that's me alright. I mean, come on, this is GOD we're talking about. GOD. That's pretty exciting, not to mention moving. Satan has this funny way of making Him seem less important or "too deep" for me. It's something I struggle with every day. Apathy with God. I forget to do my quiet time because of lack of interest. I get comfortable with where I am in life because of an absence of passion. (Oh wow, just so you know, as I'm writing this, God's really gettin' a hold of me) So Lord, here is my apathy. Take it. All I am is Yours.

Now on to my next thought. I now know that God wants me to serve. And I know we all serve God's kingdom in one way or another, but God is telling me, no, screaming at me, that my life will be an adventure. I am meant to go places. I am meant to share God. I was born to go. I am here to spread the Hope. This is my purpose. Life has no other worth other than to share God. 

And I mean, how could you not share God??? I mean, this is GOD. I think we forget that sometimes. GOD IS GOD. He can do anything. He created everything. He lived, died, and loved while doing it all. Do you not see who He is??? Do you not realize who you talked to while you pray??? Do you not feel that the King of Kings is living in your heart??? He is all-powerful and ever-present. He is with us always. He is everywhere at once. He will never tire, He will never end. God is not limited by anything. God is incomprehensible. The same God that revealed Himself to Moses is seeking you out today. You read the Bible and hear these great stories of miracles. God can and does do those today! How can we talk of God so calmly? How can we avoid God in conversations with new acquaintances? How can we hide our faith from strangers? How???? Ah! God is here! God is ALIVE! God DIED and God ROSE AGAIN. That is CRAZY! I know I'm all worked up but seriously, examine yourself. When you see God's name, does your heart leap for joy? Or does it skip a beat? Or neither? How often do we jump up and down for a chance to talk to God? Have you ever texted your friend just to excitedly tell her/him that you just got finished praying? We have forgotten who we worship. We learn all of these other things and while trying to remember what He wants us to do, we lose sight of who we're doing it all for. I mean, we know we live a Christian life for God, but we forget who God really is. I don't know... this is just all so crazy.

I'm sorry I'm rambling. God is just revealing this all to me as I write it. That's why this blog is so important to me. The more I write the more I discover. But now that I know all these things, I need to do something. And I need to figure out how I'm doing to do it. But that's another post for another day. For now, I'll stop so I don't have a novel written by the time I'm done. I hope He spoke to you through this like He did for me. Have a great week. :)

With awestruck love for Him.

Yours truly,

SD

"Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise of the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast." ~ Psalm 139:7-10