It's the hardest thing to really, really like someone and still try to follow God (not as in staying a Christian, but as in giving Him your 100% devotion). Maybe it's just because I'm a girl and we tend to be over-dramatic about boys. Maybe it's because I'm not as close to God at the moment as I could be. Either way, it's hard to overcome it. "Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." - Psalm 37:4. I know that, but it's harder than it sounds. It's difficult to put your dating future in the hands of God when you have your heart set on this one person. I mean if God called me to another country right now I'd say, "Heck yeah!" And would not worry about not being able to talk to this person. And it's not even that I'm afraid I won't be able to date him, because I doubt he even likes me. I just enjoy fantasizing about it. I guess the true difficulty is the fact that he distracts me from God. God seems less important because He doesn't make me feel the same way that my crush does. But that is so NOT true! It's awful because I talk to my crush and get sad because I can't see him (he lives far away and doesn't go to my school) and then I go and see the Bible verse I posted a few minutes ago and feel sad because I failed to consider God in all this. Guys and God are the two hardest things to mix. I think it's very important for Christ to be all over every aspect of my life but when it comes to boys... man, it always gets me.
And then, on top of all of this conflict, Satan tries to make it worse by making me feel bad that I like the boy. He makes me think that God is disappointed in me because I haven't mastered the art of bringing Him into every aspect of my life. But the truth is, God knows I'm imperfect. I can't be perfect. He forgives me before it even happens. God won't be disappointed because you sin. He just wants you to get up and keep trying. Don't listen to anyone except His voice because God isn't a God of standards and strictness. He's the God of compassion, comfort, patience and guidance. He is wisdom, power, courage and love.
Sorry for all this deep stuff again. This truly is the best place for me to express my problems. If you've made it this far, thanks for reading and pray that you won't have as hard of a time as I'm having!
With love for Him.
Yours truly,
SD
Well Sarah. You just about described what I'm going through right now to the point.
ReplyDelete"God seems less important because He doesn't make me feel the same way that my crush does. But that is so NOT true!" I felt that first part for a long time and I felt terrible because well, it is crazy hard to mix God with guys. That is one of those things that doesn't come naturally for me. And then I'll go into this thing where I just feel plain bad about liking guys at all. But I've realized that God wouldn't have created love between guys and girls is He didn't want to. It's not a sin to like (or love) somebody...it's just a sin if we put them higher than God (which is easy to do).
Well, love, I'll be praying for you in all this. Please pray for me, too.
Thank you, and yes, I'll pray for you too. It's good to know I'm not alone in this. :) I love you so much!
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