My public diary to get me through four years of high school...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Mixed Feelings

So, I've discovered the root of what my whole last post was about. Basically, I was trying to put myself in a situation where I would be completely dependent on God alone, because I'd never done that before. Sure, I depend on God to take care of my soul, but what about my body? I was plagued with the idea of giving away all my money and extra clothes, I even wanted to try fasting just to prove that all I needed was God. It was strange, but I'm kind of over it now. I'm still dependent on God, I thank Him every time I receive something. But now I'm not going to rashly give away all of my money. I know what I'm saving for and it will bring more glory to God than a donation.

So, switching subjects, I just got done watching Super 8. It was really good! Now I want to make a movie with my friends. Haha :) But it brought back to my attention something very odd about me. I've always been very empathetic, but I've realized that when someone is grieving or something like that, I can literally feel their pain. I've never been that upset before but I feel their hurt in my heart. I feel it like I'm experiencing it myself. It's strange...

I had more to say but... I forgot. Maybe I'll post again later. I'm feeling kinda weird right now.

Oh well. God is good. :) I still pray for Steve every day. I'm so excited for Puerto Rico. Let's pray big things happen.

Sarah

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